Under Attack; Looking Back on "13 Reasons Why NOT"
Hey friends - its been a hot minute, Sorry about that...
The last time you heard from me, I wrote a post that went viral with nearly 1 million views. It was a fairly controversial post, but I'm not here to make friends or people please; I'm here to share my heart and faith and ultimately to further the Kingdom.
I feel confident that I did that; impacted at least one person with that post.
However, with a big platform, comes the most vulnerability; spiritually, emotionally, and mentally.
I can't begin to tell you how many hate emails and comments I got. While I got countless hate messages, the positive feedback outweighed the negative. I can't say, however, that the negative didn't hit me far more intensely than the positive did. I was crushed when I read a message from a mother, saying that my message was irrelevant and making matters worse if anything, because it was "cheap writing" at most. Talk about hurt, that doesn't even come close to describing my emotions while reading that email that night.
For those of you who don't know, to sum it up, my post was about self worth, and taking a positive twist on the hit Netflix series 13 Reasons Why. I had no idea where said post was going to take me. I literally wrote it in 20 minutes in the middle of the night after binge watching the series on my laptop. Little did I know, I would later get calls from a Steve Harvey Radio Show, CBN, Mary Kate Robertson, and appear on local news networks.
I was in awe, yet so vulnerable.
I believe that when you take a stance for Jesus, or simply against the things of this world, Satan will attempt to attack like never before, especially when with that stance, comes a big platform like the one I had back in April.
Since then, I've been hit below the belt with countless things, and not until recently did I realize that it was Satan, attacking me directly and related entirely to my platform/stance I took a few months ago in publishing that post.
I have fallen back into spouts of depression, I've been struggling severely with my appearance and confidence in how I look, been discouraged in my faith, having feelings of loneliness and I've struggled with some physical ailments that slowed down my stride with my health. I was talking with someone last night and she brought it to my attention, that sure enough, satan was trying to get to me and in the ways that he had, it kind of directly related back to my platform I had; SELF WORTH.
I was shocked and completely taken back when I came to this realization.
While I've been knocked down a few times since being on an ultimate high in my life, I have gotten back up solely with the help of Jesus and never once have I regretted putting my heart down on paper (or screens haha) 4 months ago.
I write all of this to encourage you. To take your stance. Stand up for what you believe in. Be vulnerable. Brush off the hate. Its inevitable. You are making a difference.
I am now, because of all this, better and stronger than I have ever been.
P.S. If you haven't read the post I talked about in this post, you can find it linked here. Oh, and do me a favor, the world could use a little less hate, share some love. ;*